yey???

ok... lets talk 'bout today...
mm... in the early morning b'fore i went to skul...
i was lik... ohh... i didnt know the meaning of "ocward"... the word "Knowing" was using...
so i went searching wif my dictionary... n' i found nothing...
so i went on9 to check... n' i found out tat "ocward" is "awkward"...
is lik... why am i so dumb...
haha...
next topic... :P
after my birthday... i truely changed in the sense of me face n' action in the skul...
is lik i hv a bit confidence... n' sometimes i went crazy... " just only a bit "...
but my face just grew pimples tat was filling wif " yellow substance "...
eww.... i try not to touch or burst it...
but the girls in my skul was lik... can i pinch it...
it's so weird tat all girls lik to pinch their pimples...
ok.. bac to the topic... i really sense tat i talk a lot now...
is lik i feel i'm better wif my face... " means a bit handsome " :P haha...
so i'm happy n' confidence... but i truely scare the lights flash on me...
coz it will flash my skin brightly n' lik i'm a death guy...
coz my face was white
ok... to make a long story short of today...
here it is....
morning.. went to skul.. every1 asking why u didnt come on friday.. replied... :P hv chemist class... make electrolysis experiment " tat's kind of weird n' not fun ", but i lik chemist... just the teacher make it bored... then hv math class.. n' it's lik omg... he gave us some "games" n' make a square wif the cards he gave us wif the equations (Expansion n' Factorisation of Algebraic Expressions), feels tat i'm 15 n' they r teaching this sort of maths??? maybe is my prob... :P... k.. then we hv our lunch.... 2 hours of tutorials... i was lik damn boring... n' i went to Com Lab do research (playing games) boring games... then went down hv our tea break... then we hv our stupid presentation 'bout the geography thingy.. n' it's our annual course work of 5%... n' the stupid teacher was lik scolding us for small things... arghh... n' the girls who r in the group of mine cried coz they didnt well prepared n' scare techer will say n' giv them low marks... n' she's lik "ohh, this is the worst presentation of mine"... this rich guys is always tat "..." right??? hate those rich guys who always showing off wif her "bling-bling"... arghhh...k this is how it went in skul...

ok... now... i just watched House Bunny...House Bunny...

ok... the same old-fashioned way of mine... this movie is quite nice...
i lik it... it's kinda fun watching it... n' it's funny...
i rmb the scene of the girl who lik a guy in the calendar pic...
it was lik omigosh... disgusting... but funny... : )
k... while i was watching.. i was worried 'bout the 2 essays i havent done...
n' a research tat i havent did... stupid me... :'(
it's stress being in this skul... it's lik we dont giv u homework to do...
but we giv u assignments, presentations, projects... doesnt tat counted as homework my gosh...
ok... i hv nothing to say for now... : )
haha... coz i hv blog out all my words in me brain...
still wishing i could be a movie star... silly dreams....
maybe will post tomorrow again... IF i'm free... :P
bye my blog... :P
oh ya.. just to add in something...
i just rmb'ed tat when i was asleep at 6.30p.m. i dreamed tat my fwen was hv'ing ben 10's power... n' he's lik the 1 i'm not close to... but why the power's couldn't be mine... haha.. silly me posting this thing up... but... maybe is b'coz tat the last movie b'fore i slept was Ben 10... haha...
ok... till here my blog... bb... : )

since i havent forget...

ok... since i havent forget...
i went to the Klang Jusco n' watched Race To The Witch Mountain...

Race To The Witch Mountain

Now... since i havent forgotten tat i hv watch this movie b'fore...
i would lik to post this so tat i'll rmb...
this movie is also quite nice... ( it's lik every movie is quite nice for me )... lol...
Dwayne The Rock Johnson, Alexander Ludwig... n' the other girl i don know...
but i know she hv an acting part in Charlie n' The Chocolate Factory as Violet???...
i was jealous wif Alexander Ludwig... coz i knew tat he got a muscular body... n' he's quite a cute guy for girls...
i just wish tat i could be him... why cant i be him...
but... when i think of there was many more ppl is more worst than me...
it just cool me down... lik i was comforting myself... : (
haih... they say GOD was so fair to us...
but i just kept thinking he's not..
coz it's lik the 1's who belive in GOD will hv all the good things...
while those who dont just live in a normal or bad life...
n' it's lik, examples... the actors hv such a good face... hv fans...
while the others is lik u hv no good face... u live in a suffer pain life...
haizz... i dunno... but i just kept comforting myself tat some1 is really had a bad life than mine...
i cant be selfish to myself...
lik when i wish... i also wish to the child who is suffering lik me too...
saddddd..........

oh ya... just rmb tat i saw a stupid croach in my study place...
then i was lik shuuu... go away... n' it went to my socks tat i just wore...
arghh.. stupid croach.. make me need to wash my socks...
hate tat croach... stupid croach...
but truely when i mention sock to myself or watching others i mean cute one's...
it's lik i get .... h.o.r.n.y...
arghh... it feels weird but good when i c tat...
m i sick... but i was really h.o.r.n.y. when i saw some cuties wearing shorted-socks...
it's lik so hot... but i'm a guy man... why would i hv tat feelings...
my god...
hv to stop here... :P
will chat wif me blog later... b...

this few days...

hmmm... dunno where to start... ok... lets start from yesterday... or the day before yesterday??? ok... to be truth i didnt went to skul on friday coz of my assignment tat i havent been finished nor i'm sick... but i lied to me parents n' fwens tat i was sick... but... i told 1 of me fwen tat i'm just trying to escape from the discipline... ohhh man... i noe it's bad... but... i felt lik nothing had just happened... ok.... now change to yesterday... yesterday i've watch 2 movies wif the PPS software of mine... n' it was Marley n' Me & 13 going on 30....

Marley n' Meeeeee...

13 going on 30

I personaly think tat this 2 movie's quite nice for me...
it's quite funny of these 2 movies...
the Marley part in the end is quite pity...
n' now i hv just forgot how it ends.... ohmygosh...
my memory is so damn bad...
ok... i hv forgotten what is happen in the middle...
but i rmb wat i was thinking in the night...
i was thinking all 'bout my life if i could went bac to my pass n' change my whole future...
i kept thinking tat i'm now in a dream... n' when i wake up later i was really being waked up...
means tat maybe lik the movie i was dreaming or being in a coma... ( but i didnt think of coma... :P )
just wish tat i could go bac to the past n' rescue my future... ( now ) this future...
haizz... if it's wasnt the laziness of mine...
i would be more confidence n' less sensitive, stupid, helpless...
arghhhh..... why o why o why.....

ok... harrr.... let's change it to today...
today i woke up around 11a.m.??? n' before i woke up...
n' it's around 7 a.m. i heard my mum n' bro was argueing....
haih... dunno why is this my family...
always kept on argue n' argue n' argue...
i'm so sad... coz when i woke up i wasnt in the pass of mine...
i'm still trap in this future of mine...
later i went out wif father...
n' we went to Summit (shopping mall)...
we went there n' planning to watch a movie... n' 1st we thought of watching Confession of A Shopaholic... but in the last we watched Knowing...

Knowing...

Ok... this movie is quite nice... quite realistic...

the kid there was so cute... i really wonder 'bout the couple of kids in the new "earth"....
wat would they do... :P haha... how did they learned it... :P
i'm so bad... thinking of this bad "things"...
i lik the boy kid... so cute... too bad i'm not a girl or nor i'm not a cute teenager...
or a cute kid when i was a kid... : (
he's lucky... i wish i would hv in a acting business...
i've dreamed this future since i was small... i really wish i could be a famous actor...
but i cant... coz i'm an asian... whose living matter is different as the kid in uk or us...
i don hv a muscular body n' i'm 15 now... i'm just skinny n' slim now...
i've only little muscle... arghhh...
i wish i could be an actor pls... pls help me....
i'm such a boring guy... haih...
chat later me blog... bb...
miss ya... :P haha... : )

waaa...waa.... : (

waaa... waa... : (
no 1 knows me birthday... ( i mean my fwens )
coz they help every1 in the class make some little noise on their birthday...
but tomorrow is my birthday...
but they all lik forgot ald...
i feel very sad... it's lik i'm invisible in the class... : (
sad.... very sad...
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yesterday's post tat 1..
today quite happy la..
coz my friends really tricked me..
is lik hmm... they forget bout' me... : (
waa... wanna cry..
but they still rmb... happy lo...
n' happy of my family too..
coz they also care 'bout me especially my 2nd bro.. :P
he bought cake, drinks, pizza, kfc for me..
haha... i really tot they really forget...
n' i'm happy of my friends coz really many friends...
including old one's greet me... : )
feel happy...
my friends at skul also provide cake for me..
n' i heard tat is lik RM60++...
expensive... :P
really thank them..
but i'm lik dunno how to express my thankness...
just stand there lika piece of wood..
thank you me friends...
i really appreaciate...

Thank you my family n' friends...
I really appreaciate it... : )
Thanks...

weird feelings... wanna cry... :'(

my weird feelings came bac to me again... :(
is lik my life hv no more meaning...
this few days i just sleep , watch tv n' sleep n' watch tv.... continuously...
now my feelings is weird... i feel bad...
why m i having this...
why m i suffering...
why... why... why...
i'm ugly, i hv no talent, i hv nothing........
why.......
i feel so bad now...
i really hv no memories...
why... everything tat happened i'll raelly forget in a day or few...
now i hv many pressure in me...
1 of it is maybe i havent finish my homework yet...
haihhhh............... arggggggggggggghhhhhhhh........
heeeeeellllllllllllpppppppppp.........
i really need a girlfriend or boyfriend to talk to...
i hv no1 to talk to only my soft toys... :P
lik i'm in a wonderland..
talking to them..
but i hv no1 to talk to...
i really wish i could hv a bf or gf to talk to...
i really need 1....
pllllssssss.....
i really dunno wat to do... pls help me...
why do i feel lik this...

didint post for 6 days again... :p

i was sick a couple days ago...
it was lik omg... helppp...
coz i was having a high fever...
i hv flu, fever, neck pain...
just today when i went to the clinic it was normal again...

life was so hard...
coz i found out that all my friends hv their own ability...
lik guitar, piano, swimming, drum, badminton, learning Japanese...
while me...
non of these is my ability... as u can say i hv no ability...
arghh... i dunno how could i survive in this society...
i hv nothing... :(
i hv no faith in my life... i'm so dead... :(
i'm very suffering right now...
dunno what to say to myself...
haih...

no post for 5 days...!!! :p

hahaz... didnt post my blog for lik 5 days...
n' ihv forgotten wat hv happen in this few days..
my memory is so poor... : (
ohh ya... but i rmb the true fitness..
i went there on Sunday...
i hv asked for some of the informations...
n' i was given a VIP guest card...
so the next day i went for a session...
after having the session i felt my stomach n' arm muscles pain...
it's some sort of pain till today it's haven been gone... : )
but i think is a good symptoms rite???
coz i'm building up muscles???
i found out a friendsterism who looks so darn cute...
i had wish tat i was him... lolz... : (
he ald had 3 friendster on... n' all of it was lik full...
haizz... but i hv no hope...
coz my face looks old... n' plus tat i'm tall... ( it's lik grown-up, mature )
every1 thinks tat i'm 20+ which i'm only 15...
sad case... haizz... why... why should i look so old... : (

oh ya...
change bac to the fitness case...
i really wanna go to the gym...
coz i'm a bit skinny... i wanna build up me muscle....
but mum is lik no don waste ur money...
u hv no time to go... blablabla...
haiz.. today was the last day of promotion...
dunno could i get onto it or not... : (

dunno wat to say anymore...
will post another 1 asap... : )
bb me blog...

Boring day for me... again....

today was so tired...
i woke up on 3 or 4am then start doin me physic report...
finish report by the time i'm goin skul...
so i didnt sleep for the whole day until i'm bac home around 5.30pm...
then did some work... about 7pm only sleep...
woke up at 9??? haih...
so tired...
u noe wat... teacher say mine good...
but u noe why... it's b'coz i didnt copy n' paste for the report...
is tat lik so lame... u didnt sort of cheating n' u r very good d...
1 of my friend just simply did it n' teacher also say very good...
but i noe... coz copying is cheating...
haha... my mind is goin burst for the physic...
just finish physic report then today got another Malay assignment...
arghhhh...... i havent rest yet ok...
could you let me rest... : P

today our Chinese teacher didnt come...
so we hv tutorial in our class...
every1 is lik so crazy... including me...
some of them are playing cards...
while me... i was playing my fwen's phone's game...
"Bouncy Ball"
it's lik so hard to play... me and some of me fwens all shouted when the ball fell...
so funny when i played it... coz i also do some weird face when i pass or fell...
haha... so fun...
after the tutorial we hv our co-curiculum...
mine was Hip-Hop...
today is quite ok for me...
coz i finally could get onto the steps...
but 1 of me fwens said tat i don look nice when i dance...
so it's lik so hurt... : (
need to practice more in the dance... Dont Stop The Music...
quite a nice song... : P

haih... always editing the posts...
now i hv nothing to say...
have 3 straight holidays start from tomorrow...
maybe will post tomorrow if i got activity... : P
coz if not... nothing to post... : )
lame me... byez....

Happy Birthday Dad !!! : )

today is father's birthday...
but there's no cake for him until 11pm...
n' when he had dinner i was sleeping...
felt very sorry for dad...

Happy Birthday Dad!!!
this birthday of his today is lik very silent...
no1 here... : (
dunno wat to say now...
nothing in my mind...
got notice tat this cake is a chocolate moose cake...
n' this year there's no KFC for dad...
coz no1 bought it... : (
I had wish dad in the morning...
but it's when i was goin off the car to skul...
tat was the time i greet dad...
Happy Birthday again...

will post another post later : P
lame me... haha....

a few day didnt post me blog... : P
mm... a couple days???
yesterday was the first day i tasted "Baskin Robbin"...
wow... it's likdamn expensive... for me la...
others is lik it's so normal...
RM8 per scoop ya'noe...
but quite nice la... my scoop is called " Medal ??? Ribbon"...
forgotten the middle 1... : P
haha...

today i did 2 presentations... the 1st 1 was the biology's "p"...
2nd is me english "p"...
this 2 is quite ok than last time la...
not so too nervous... : P
i tot it's bad coz there no sound when i presented...
but teacher ok... then ok lo... : )


2molow i'll post my drawing for the biology "p" : P
coz didnt bring bac coz need to put in class... : P

i still hv physics report...
still havent do... just got the information only...
havent read through... : (
n' the deadline is the next day after tomorrow...
arghh... this week got so many homework... : (
chinese... bio... physic... geo... malay... history...
arghhhhhhhhhhhh...
just rmb tomorrow got history exam...
stupid la... wanna die ald...

i think will post another post 2molow la...
night to me... : P

i'm so dissapointed in my family...
they're lik they don care about me...
i just told my brother n' he just u tell ur father la...
then he's lik doin a billion dollar project saying tat i'm sososo busy...
why do i hv this kind of family...
shall i suffer all the pain...???
why u wanted me to suffer... why...
maybe it's my prob... not theirs...
haih...
just went to the clinic n' they say tat my right lung "fa yan" inflamed...
so it causes me hard breathing n' pain...
so sad about my fwens...
coz when i go out from the class...
no1 say byex2 to me... others they'll...
but me nope... :'( sob..sob..
why o... why o... why o... why...

omg... i dunno wat happened to me today...
my upper right lung was being threathen...
when i breathe in hard... it'll be so pain...
so i've to breathe in slowly... n' this makes me hard to sleep...
i try to ask sister for a solution n' she's lik i dunno...
go ask ur mum... blablabla...
i tried to talk to my parents... n' before i hv talk any...
they just got something to scold u... or say u...
so i rather don talk to them... i'll just hv my own solutions...
so i went to google n' type "hard to breath right lung pain"...
n' i maybe hv the risk of hving a collapse lung...
but i hope it's not... coz they say tat tall skinny ppl will usually get it...
arghh... why this thing is happening to me...
it's so hard to breath right now... n' it's pain...
more suffering right now again...
should i suffer more???

Haih... another sad, emo day for me...
just dunno why...
today went to Sunway wif me fwens...
shopping... "hang gai" only... then watch a movie " New In Town"
quite a nice movie to c for me... coz i lik some culture old-storyline movie...
when i'm at Sunway or as i could say any mall...
i'll always be sort of emo looking...
this is coz i'm lack of confidence of meself...
i always think tat tat's some1 better than me... n' i'm sososo ugly...
so i just walking lik a dead man... "a body wif no soul"...
haiz... it's kind of sad to myself...
just dunno why other ppl could be happy even though ppl talk about them...
i'm so curious it... which tat i could learn from them...
haizz... change to the movie k...
the movie is quite nice... n' there a part tat i saw the scrapbook...
wow... i'm interest of making 1 of mine... is so nice n' memorial...
after the movie me n' me fwens went "shopping" again...
i was goin into many teddy shops... so they must be thinking i'm weird... :P
haha... i'm just a dreamland boy... " guy " as i look much older than my ordinary age...
i just hv to talk to my ownself or some of my teddys... : )
so lame rite... haha... but it's true...
coz i really don hv any true fwens tat i could count on...
all of my fwen ald hv their partners n' more...
but i'm kind of the only 1??? haih..
n' for more i think they kinda hate me or somethin???
maybe i'm too sensitive... coz at skul i don talk...
i just act lik a "dead-man" lying around being an emo guy...
haih... pls help me man... i so suffering...
now the new skul is more complicating...
research... presentation... research... presentation...
i don know if this is good for me or not...
i hope tat i didnt choose the wrong decision again...
hv been for a couple of years i didnt post anything in my blog...
hope tat all my dreams in my mind would came true...

today... c the daily horoscope from the lilian too website...
n' it say tat i would find a very good career... but i must act fast...
but it's lik tricking me... arghhh... :'(

everyday i worried about my homework n' more...
dunno why must i worry so much...
i'm stressed about it...
this week i need to pass up the physic reseach report....
follow by the research report... i hv another eng presentation...
n' everytime i hv a presentation... i'll always be nervous...
coz i hv said tat i lack of confidence... haih...
n' i'll be so sad after the presentation... coz i noe i didnt did me best...
in my mind... i think of the best presentation i could come wif...
but when i'm out... i'm sooosooosoo nervous... i'll forget all the scripts...
haih... hhhhheeeeeelllllllllppppppppp...
hv to start my research i think... if i'm not lazy right now...
chat later again tommorow i think...
wish tat i'm not lazy to post... : P

night... : P